THE RECOVERING GODDESS
Recovering & Reclaiming
Ancient Ways to Heal our Lives
JoAnna is a Dianic High Priestess, UCM Minister, Tarot Reader,
Independent Scholar, Writer,
Teacher of Women's Mysteries, Activist, Poet, Musician, Seer,
Mother and Grandmother.
Rev. JoAnna "Silverwitch" Medina is the founding mother of THE SACRED CIRCLE, a self-supporting sisterhood of recovering women who are reclaiming the power of
the Divine Feminine to heal from
all additions, codependency, and the insidious ways of Patriarchy.
The Circle provides Women's Studies; Pass the Rattle Circles;
Tarot Circles, Moon Circles, Rituals, Retreats and Seasonal Gatherings for women-born-women.
JoAnna's been Recovering and Reclaiming for over 34 years.
THE SACRED CIRCLE
Recovering & Reclaiming
Women's Mysteries to heal from Patriarchy
and the dysfunctional ways of the world
The Sacred Circle of Maidens, Mothers, Queens & Crones...
invites recovering & reclaiming sisters everywhere to join the dance of our sisterhood. By coming together to share our experience, strength, hope and wisdom of the Divine Feminine
we are healing from the long-standing effects of Patriarchy, Internalized Oppression, Codependency and
various compulsions and addictions while bringing
awareness, change, inspiration and support to others.
WHEN WOMEN HEAL, THE EARTH HEALS!
WHAT IS A
RECOVERING & RECLAIMING
Recovering & Reclaiming Women are women-born-women
who are healing themselves from the effects of Patriarchy
by embracing a spiritual path that defines, honors,
and respects who we are as woman.
R & R Women have liberated themselves...
or want to liberate themselves... from the mind-sets and oppressive beliefs of the Patriarchal System
while embracing their true authenticity as maidens,
amazons, mothers, queens and crones while honoring their natural spiritual authority as WOMAN.
Recovering & Reclaiming Women honor their natural role as creators of life and their oneness with Nature & Spirit and the great web of life... therefore, they use their talents and gifts to tend, befriend all creatures of the earth while serve humanity.
My Recovering & Reclaiming Story
How the Goddess Transformed my Life
The Sisterhood of the Sacred Circle was born in the early years of my recovery as the result of a profound spiritual experience that reunited me with the ancient spirit of the Divine Feminine. This extraordinary epiphany occurred on a Nature walk in the Spring of 1985 and changed my life in ways I never dreamed possible.
At the time I was very active in a 12-Step program of recovery: attending meetings on a daily basis; cleaning up the wreckage of my past; healing from years of dysfunctional living, assisting others in recovery; raising kids; mending family relationships and working in the Chemical Dependency Field... but in spite of my very busy life, which included weekly jaunts to the seashore, I began developing an insatiable urge to spend more time in Nature.
The urge was overwhelming, not to mention distracting. I felt a sudden need to feel the dirt between my toes, to bask in Nature's beauty and wonder... and with the divine guidance already experienced in my life I knew this urge was important, that it couldn't be denied. I struggled awhile with this urge, however, because my life was full. I had commitments to women in recovery, to my job and to my family, and didn't think I could squeeze any more time out of my busy schedule. But, the urge persisted and I knew it well... so I prayed for guidance.
I soon heard about a lovely rural preserve just blocks away from home so I decided to check it out. This beautiful "park" turned out to be just what I needed. It had thick wooded trees, beautiful ponds and lakes, dirt trails, wildlife and a wide flowing creek that ran for miles year round. It was perfect, and since I worked evenings I started going there in the morning before my noon meetings while my daughters were in school.
Sometimes I'd spend hours in this beautiful rustic getaway basking in the beauty of the earth and fragrance of the wildflowers. I would walk on trails along the creek's edge feeling the warmth of the sun on my face, or meditate peacefully in quiet groves listening to the wind, but it was always a delight that nurtured my soul. I would also offer silent prayers as I walked, giving thanks for my sobriety, for my recovery, for my healing and peace of mind. This is when the course of my life was changed forever.
One particular morning near the Spring Equinox in 1985, on my day off from work, I strolled in my usual
lackadaisical fashion along my favorite dirt path near the duck
ponds, basking in whimsical enchantment and offering prayers of
gratitude to Mother Nature for the beauty surrounding me, when I was
abruptly stopped in my tracks by a feminine "spirit" whispering through my consciousness. She told me I was made in "HER
image and likeness" because I brought life into the world like
she did. Then, in what seemed like a suspended moment in time, I had a powerful "vision" that revealed my oneness and sameness with Mother Earth while a powerful force of cosmic energy swept through
me, replacing all former ideologies with overwhelming feelings of self-love and sacredness never before
experienced! My soul and sanity seemed to be restored in a matter of seconds, and I was stunned, but as if waking from a dream I knew exactly who SHE was! At that moment, from a very deep place within me, her ancient memory rose to the surface of my consciousness and I uttered... “Mother, is that you?”
This powerful awakening was so sudden and unexpected that it prompted me to seek immediate refuge under my favorite willow tree by the creek. I sat down on the cool moss and began weeping, blubbering apologies to my ancient cosmic Mother for somehow forgetting Her in a maze of hypnosis that seemed to be just wearing off. I realized I had always been one with her, like her, separated only by patriarchal religions, false beliefs and illusions of the mind! I felt like Sleeping Beauty waking from a spell of slumbering exile, somewhat embarrassed that I had fallen prey to such a thing! But this re-connection with the Goddess assuaged any lingering guilt, for as her symphonic sounds and haunting laughter echoed magically through my natural surroundings I was deeply reassured that the joke was on me!
My weeping continued all afternoon along with a series of powerful visions, but the cleansing and clarity brought healing, relief and release from years of self-bondage. As I listened by the flowing creek a tremendous sense of clarity came over me. I was shown, at that moment, why I had become so dysfunctional and why I was REALLY in recovery. It was clear that I had become the victim of a male-dominated world since birth, captive in its oppressive grip along with millions of others. It was also clear that under this powerful, cultural influence I unconsciously gave my power away to the dysfunctional systems around me — to people, places and things outside myself — and by doing so developed an insidious soul sickness that actually severed me from my authentic nature, from my divinity as a living spirit; from my oneness with Mother Earth and from my sacredness and natural spiritual authority as a woman!
It suddenly dawned on me that this soul-fragmentation was the "spiritual malady" we talked about in our recovery programs, that it was the underlying cause of the shame, codependency, neurotic behaviors, compulsive disorders and life-shattering addictions that had made my life unmanageable and almost killed me. "How could I have been so blind?" I cried. "How could I have done this to myself?"
As I sat there by the flowing creek my life flashed in front of me. The roots of my oppression were clear along with the contempt and rage I had always felt for the world. Now, I was beginning to understand why I had such extreme emotional reactions to life; why I viewed the world with contempt and disgust; why I was so defensive, rebellious, defiant and mistrusting; why I was continually fighting everyone and everything around me; why I left the Church in my teens; why I felt like a stranger in a strange land; why I altered my consciousness and buffered the pain of my existence in patriarchy with food, sex, alcohol, drugs, or any other mind-altering substance that would numb or distract me from "reality." I could see why I struggled in poverty, why I attracted dysfunctional relationships, why I suffered with tremendous guilt over my children and why I sat in jails and institutions as a direct result of my actions.
As the revelations came I finally understood why I once resented being a female; why I had problems with my self-image and sexuality; why I sacrificed my own needs and talents to gain love, attention and approval; why I suffered for years with sadness, grief and depression; why I felt odd and "different" no matter how hard I tried to fit in. It was also clear why ventures pursued in sincerity became exercises in futility even with my best efforts to conform to the patriarchal world around me; why I looked for love in all the wrong places; why I hated the roles I was expected to play in marriage; why sex was boring and unsatisfying; why I sought various escapes from reality to survive; why man-made religions didn't make sense; why I felt there was something terribly wrong with me, and why I had a huge void inside I couldn't fill.
Yes, it now made perfect sense! My years of shame, suffering, deterioration and disease were the result of a disconnection from my Deepest Self: from Nature, from Spirit, from my deep mysteries as a woman and the natural forces and cycles of life. I had been duped! I had unconsciously surrendered my feminine power, wisdom, beauty and uniqueness to the misogynist, life-sucking systems of Patriarchy along with the hypnotized multitudes around me! I became a victim of cultural forces and the illusions of the mind that went with it. The indoctrination, conditioning, false concepts and belief systems that sprang from its male-dominated religions and social systems had captured ME as it had so many other pathetic people and I had internalized every bit of it! I was absolutely appalled!
That day... sitting beside the flowing creek... my blindfold was removed and my inner sight was restored. I knew with absolute certainty that I was a visible Spirit, a divine Soul, created by a woman, not a rib, and fashioned with the elements of Mother Nature, in her image, in her likeness, and one with it all! Yes, the joke really was on me!
The revelations of that day removed all prior religious beliefs and shifted my consciousness in ways that completely altered my perception of reality! I could see that I was a living Spirit... whole and complete in the framework of my design... that there was nothing to add and nothing to take away from my True Self EXCEPT the false beliefs and illusions that had kept me in states of self-hatred and bondage for the greater part of my life. I also knew that I would continue my way of life in 12-Step Recovery... that I would continue to go to meetings; to use the principles of recovery to uncover, discover, discard and amend all that prevented me from walking in the sunlight of the spirit; and I would continue carrying the message of recovery to others, one day at a time.
Now that my long lost connection with the Goddess was restored, I knew she would not fade from my memory again. I left the park at sunset that day, but I vowed to keep her in my heart and serve her in any way that I could. I knew that I would have to share my extraordinary experience with others at some point but I didn't know exactly how or when. I had never heard anyone in our recovery program speak of HER... so I decided to remain silent about it for awhile and bask in my wonderful reality alone.
I continued my jaunts to the park and the seaside, basking in her beauty and praying for guidance. I was willing to let time and prudence take its course, and it did, because I finally got the opportunity to share my "spiritual experience" with a pagan brother in recovery who in turn pointed the way to books I needed to read about our Great Cosmic Mother; Women's Mystery Traditions of Old Europe, Ancient Goddess Religions; and many others. Another door had opened and I was elated!
For the next two years I watched films and read everything I could get my hands on about Women's Spirituality, my indigenous past, and my European Ancestry, but I was drawn like a magnet to Women's Mystery Traditions because they mirrored my experience as a woman from cradle to grave. I also began living by the seasons, by the waxing and waning cycles of the sun and moon while creating solitary rituals to honor Nature's seasons and cycles of my life as a woman. I continued remembering and reclaiming who I was, who I had always been, and my life changed in ways I never dreamed possible. This process eventually led to my ordination as a UCM Minister, as a Dianic Priestess, and as the Founding Mother of The Sacred Circle of Maidens, Mothers, Queens and Crones. Another door had opened. My real education had begun and I was inspired like never before!
My life began filling up with new meaning and real hope because I now recognized my sacredness without the self-hatred that had held me captive all my life. The Goddess filled a need in my soul that I didn't know I had. She was the missing link I had unconsciously searched for all my life! My long wait was over! My happiness was brimming, my eyes glowing. In all my years of spiritual questing I never experienced a feeling of satisfaction quite like this one. I was extremely grateful. I now felt genuine hope and inspiration. For the first time in my entire life I was happy to be on the Earth and happy to be a WOMAN because along with my commitment to recovery I was now reclaiming a spiritual path that mirrored my natural spiritual authority, my inner wisdom, and my divine physiology as a woman. It was awesome!
Now that I was embracing a true spiritual path for women, patriarchal images of Deity didn't work for me any longer, especially in 12 Step Recovery, which was a program written by men for men with a patriarchal religious focus. As a matter of fact, "GOD, as you understand HIM" -- which is a common phrase used in recovery programs -- actually began repulsing me because it was so false, misleading and damaging.
My new awareness, particularly in 12-Step Meetings, made it obvious that WE, as individuals and as a culture, had forgotten our true source of life: EARTH and MOTHER. I was deeply saddened by this. I knew if I had been taken to women's circles throughout my life it could have saved me years of confusion and heartache, particularly in the way I viewed and treated myself as a woman.
I also began recognizing that our deep soul-severance, our disconnection from the natural world and the truth about our real indigenous past sat at the root of our insanity; our cultural disorders, our codependency, our numerous addictions and the endless diseases that plague humanity!
I also discovered, while in the wilds of nature away from all worldly distractions, the peace I felt when aligning myself with the vibrational frequencies of Mother Nature. When I was surrounded by the Man-made
world, with Patriarchy and all it's insane mindsets, I became scattered, distracted, irritable, restless and discontent.
It occurred to me that this incompatibility between Mother Nature and the Man-Made World was the underlying cause of our dysfunctions all over the world! This incompatibility, along with our indoctrination into a world of false beliefs, propaganda and greedy politics produced a soul fragmentation... a separation from ourselves and the ground of our being.... which led in time to diseases of the mind, body, heart and soul; that many others beside myself had been sucked into this world of illusion and the weird form of hypnosis that went with it, even in our recovery programs, and that we ALL needed to WAKE UP in order to be happy, joyous and free.
In the months following my epiphany I continued studying secretly. I also began aligning myself with Nature's seasonal cycles, with the waxing and waning cycles of sun and moon, while weaving Women's Mysteries into my recovery program... and it didn't take long for women in recovery to notice a change in my demeanor.
Before I knew it, the women I sponsored in recovery began noticing my goddess altars in my home and began asking questions about my spiritual path. This is when I became acutely aware that many women, like myself, had difficulty with the "patriarchal god" of 12 Step Programs and either didn't know what to do about it or felt something was wrong with them because of it. Some women secretly confided that they had never really believed in a "GOD" at all!
I knew it was now time to "come out" of the broom closet and share openly about my spiritual path because I knew just how these women were feeling. Although we were repeatedly told in 12-Step meetings that we could choose a Higher Power of our own understanding, it was not our experience. "God as you understand HIM" was continually being crammed down our throats, along with patriarchal religious prayers that didn't resonate with our experiences as women. A change was definitely in order, one that would give us a deeper understanding of ourselves as women in recovery.
From that time on, when a woman voiced her discomfort with the patriarchal god of the program, I would share about the Goddess, about Mother Nature, about Women's Spirituality and our unique mysteries as women. I also shared why I needed images of the Divine Feminine to recover from the internalized belief systems of Patriarchy: from the pain, shame, soul fragmentation and internalized oppression that led to codependency and the numerous addictions that made my life so unmanageable... and they listened with enthusiasm!
Before I knew it, a small group of women began pouring into my home on a regular basis to talk about the Goddess; about Women's Spirituality and Recovery, and about our true cycles of life as women. This is how THE SACRED CIRCLE was born and grew into a Queendom of many powerful sisters... each special... each unique... each a goddess in her own right... and it has continued serving me and hundreds of women for over 30 years now.
In the Sisterhood of the Sacred Circle, we believe that men as well as women need to reclaim the Goddess because she is our maternal connection to life, the living breathing Earth-Mother of which we are all a part but our rituals and teachings are for women-born-women only. In the Circle we heal by reclaiming the truth about ourselves as WOMEN because we must discover WHO WE ARE before we can set an example for anyone else. Girls recover with the Girls. Boys recover with the Boys.
Women and Men alike suffer from a fragmentation of the soul caused by internalizing the myths of patriarchy but our indoctrination and experience in the world is very different. Not only that. We've created a world that keeps us sick and dysfunctional and we don't even know it. That's why we must all heal if we want to create a better world.
Reclaiming our oneness with Mother Nature and the great web of Life is a vital key to complete recovery and restoration to wholeness. This awareness is being shared by thousands in our world today but is still a vital element missing in our recovery programs. If we desire freedom from bondage and long-term recovery it is essential to break through our insidious denial and relinquish old ideas and belief systems that keep us separated. We must ACT our way into right thinking and reclaim ourselves on a deeper level of consciousness, one rooted in a very old and ancient truth: that we are living Spirits... one with ALL things in the great web of life.... and... WE ARE the "SAVIORS" we've been waiting for!
The Recovering & Reclaiming Path is for women-born-women who have removed... or want to remove... themselves from the oppression, mind-sets, beliefs and codependency of the Patriarchal system while reclaiming their true authenticity and natural spiritual authority as women... and serving humanity with their genuine talents and gifts.
Today I am proud to be a recovering & reclaiming woman.
For 34 years I have shared my experience, strength and hope in Rooms of Recovery and The Sacred Circle... and today I am proud to be a recovering and reclaiming woman.
Now, I offer this wisdom to you, not as the only way, but as one that may create a deeper awareness of our recovery from Patriarchy, from Codependency, and from the numerous addictions we develop while coping with the pain of our existence in the dysfunctional world of Patriarchy.
My prayer is that we will all awaken from our hypnotic stupors as Children of the Earth -- one with Nature, One in Spirit, One with all things in the great Web of Life -- so balance can be restored to our lives here and now. Maybe then, and only then, will the light of our spirits shine brightly enough on Earth to unify all creatures that depend on her sustenance!
When We Heal, the World Heals!
~ JoAnna Silverwitch ~
An excellent book for everyone in recovery who
honors the ancient ways of Nature & Spirit.
A useful tool for Earth lovers who are healing from
Western Civilization & the Diseases of More!
An excellent book for men and women who are
reclaiming the Divine Feminine in their personal life.
An inspirational Gift for our Loved Ones, Family,
Friends and Relatives in or out of recovery!
A helpful study guide for Pass the Rattle Circles;
Healing Circles; Earth-based Recovery Circles
Learn More about JoAnna & The Sacred Circle
along with upcoming gatherings, retreats & circles at:
JoAnna is a Regional Coordinator in Carson City, Nv.
for "GATHER THE WOMEN GLOBAL MATRIX"
She is also the facility overseer of the
Serenity Seekers Recovery Group in Carson City,
which holds eclectic 12-Step Meetings that focus on
women's issues and honors all spiritual and secular paths.
JoAnna is also founder and facilitator of:
LADY LIBERTY SISTERHOOD
which provides support to all women in the Americas
& around the world in our current political climate.
Check it out on this website or on Facebook
WHEN WOMEN COME TOGETHER...
THE WORLD COMES TOGETHER!
WHEN WOMEN HEAL, EARTH HEALS!
Upcoming Books & Booklets
Recovering & Reclaiming in The Sacred Circle
The 13 Step Path
Reflections of our Steps and Traditions
The Sacred Circle
of Maidens, Mothers & Crones
13 x 13
The Recovering Goddess
Healing from Patriarchy in the Lap of the Great Mother
Sacred Wheel Dancing
Reflections of Time in Poetic Rhyme
13 Steps to the Goddess
Reclaiming the Power of the Divine Feminine in Recovery
Books published by The Sacred Circle Books